This blog is on another hiatus

Yes, I have put this blog aside for the time being because I am going through some tough times with the whole applying to colleges, preparing for the SATs and applying for scholarships. Yes, I am a total nerd but I am proud of it.

Speaking of colleges i am not sure where I want to go. I was thinking of going out of state but then the cold weather is sort of making me shiver at the thought already (no pun intended). But if i can get a scholarship then wee-hoo~no problemo for me.

Anyways, I am aware that there are a bunch of things I am supposed to post in this blog i.e. road trips to LV, AZ, and NV but I simply do not have the time to get around it. Also, i want my desktop back because using dad's comp isn't convenient when you're thinking about blogging cuz there's no photos.

Till then~ tata~

Oh, and if you're wondering what I'm doing during my free time, it is this:

WHAT SHOULD I DRESS AS FOR HALLOWEEN/HARVEST FESTIVAL? :D

Suggestions are welcome (if there are still ppl reading this blog) but I prefer non-slutty clothes not because I don't like to show off my assets because it is very cold here, okay?

Nitez everyone~!

Hello

I haven't been blogging recently because....

I forgot that I own a blog. *shrugs*

I guess that's what happens when you neglect it too much? I also haven't been checking out anyone's blog other than Jen's. (which is an awesome blog btw)

But nothing interesting is going on anyway because all I'm doing right now is applying for colleges which is very stressful.

Also, I realized that maybe I shouldn't be an Architect but a Pharmacist instead. Dilemma. Two very different jobs to choose from.

K, with all that aside, I have an eye infection :(

But yay! Levin will be coming to see me in TWO months! ^_^ Joy oh joy~

Wonder what he bought me?? LoL jk.

Toodles~

Lascivious remarks in calculus speak.

Was looking up a Calculus problem online when I stumbled upon this in a math/geek forum:

"I wish I was your derivative so I could lie tangent to your curves!"

Omg, everyone was being all erudite and mathematical and when I saw this comment some anonymous fellow posted, it was so random I just had to laugh! So is this what some are thinking in math class when everyone else is busy copying notes?

I like stumbling onto little silly things like this. Makes my day a little brighter, you know? Especially when you've been solving truckloads of math problems. =S

Sigh. Gotta be in school early tomorrow. I don't like making extra effort lately...don't know why.

Nitez ya'll.

p/s: If you still don't get the joke...nvm. It's just your regular hiaw joke. I just thought it was interesting cuz I never saw it that way. :P

=)

Today I am happy. =)

Deadlines. Contracts. Scholarship...this is college?

Argh. The time has come when one has to start applying to colleges. I knew applying for colleges is somewhat bothersome, but I didn't know it was THIS confusing.

I never felt like college is near until I've gotten a bunch of letters from colleges in the mails asking me to apply to their colleges. Why is that colleges you're not particular interested in always offer you scholarships and colleges you aim for doesn't even know you exist?

Also facing a dilemma: Should I stay in CA or go out of state?

I don't see the difference in tuition by staying in Cali since I'm still considered an out-of-state student. Did you know? If were a resident I'd only pay $8700 but if I'm a non-resident I have to pay like $30,000? How many more thousands is that? *faints*

I know I'm not a bad student, in fact, my GPA and report card says otherwise. Yet, I often doubt my abilities and intellect. I'm trying to find a reason why I don't fully believe in myself even when I know I'm at least one of the top. Sometimes other people seem so perfect that you worry about being too proud of yourself, you know?

Which leads me to ask this: Do smart people take pride in being smart and worry less about their performance? Or do they strive harder to make sure they're always on top?

I really wish I knew what they were thinking.

Depressed

After spending these two months with my family and away from my school friends, I think I really don't like my "friends" after all. I don't even know if they are my friends. For the most part, it's just them talking and me listening. Perhaps it's my fault for not opening up cuz friendship takes two to build, but I really don't feel like opening myself up to them. They're not people I can trust. I think, for me, I find it hard to have true/close friends. I'm not the type who enjoy having lots of friends either. Another thing about me is I don't trust girls and I don't have many "girl-friends". I limit them to one or two. Mostly because girls gossip too much?

Anyway, after spending almost 2 years in the States, I realize the people I still think about most are Siu Gin, Faustina, Yeh Tung, and sometimes Ban Chieng (not really close to her, but she's sometimes part of the group I hang out with). I think those girls are the only girls I've ever come to trust and open up to. In the past, most of my "girl-friends" are people whom I thought I trusted a lot, and I still believe I did trust them, but perhaps not as much as these girls. Also, these girls are crazy! (like me) and loud (well, mostly Siu Gin anyway, but I love her for that), so I think I can be more like myself around them without having to worry about being too "weird" or "embarassing" to them.

But there comes a time in life where everyone has to split up. Some would leave you, and some would stay. In my case, I was the one who left them (not very willingly I might add) but I heard that all of them would eventually end up in their own separate ways.

I miss Kuching. =(

I only have a year left in my high school, but I kind of dread going back. I wonder if I'll ever make friends like Siu Gin or Faus or YT again, esp in a school like mine. Although most people would imagine that my main obstacle in making friends is because of racism, I assure you it is not. My school is just...ghetto. It's no GRSS where bengs and lians are minimal (as compared to mine anyway). And besides, after coming to my school, bengs and lians are completely harmless creatures (well, almost). My school is just...downright freaky, okay? But I survived.

Well, after saying so many negatives about my school, I guess I should at least point out that education here is much much better as compared to the ones in Malaysia. Teachers here are passionate about teaching. It's too bad the students don't feel the same way. But I really like and appreciate my teacher's hard work and effort.

Gah, senior year. -_- Then there's graduation and Prom and Grad Night. I wonder if I'll be okay. I hope I will. Bless me in my senior year!

K, gotta give Hannah a hair dye now cuz her previous dye sucked. Btw, I now have BROWN HAIR! Yeah, I know I'm talking like it's a big deal but it IS! Cuz i did it myself! Wahaha. *gloats*

K..bye!

Went to Long Beach!!!

This is just an excuse to move previous blog entry down. XD Will blog about Long Beach but right now I don't have the photos so I cannot blog about it. Yes lar Ammy, we got take pictures, okay? Will update.

Bye!